Only child vs two children

Janelle was an only child for 2.5 years before Jayven joined our happy family. I can still remember how attached I am to my firstborn and the intense love that I have for her the moment I set my eyes on her. As she grow older, my love for her grow deeper too. I wouldn't have thought of a sibling for her as I love her dearly that I wonder how it is ever possible to spilt the love.

Even during my second pregnancy, my jealous firstborn demanded more attention from me & wanted me to carry her most of the times (even when I was heavily pregnant) & I couldn't even bear to say no to her. I thought to myself then. Will I be able to shower the same love for my secondborn? What if I am not able to divide the love equally?

I believed that there are many only child mummies who felt the same way as I initially did. How will it be possible for us to spilt the love for another child?

Guess i have underestimated maternal affection. When my secondborn arrive prematurely at 34 weeks, he was such a tiny baby weighing at 2.15kg. I was worried that I might not be able to cope with 2 childrens esp with one preemie who required special attention. But the first time I held him in my arms, I know I love him & I can love him like my firstborn. The love that I have for My firstborn was not divided. Instead the love that I have for my children intensify & grow much deeper.

Being an only child back then, Janelle had all our undivided attention & time. With the addition of her brother, it is indeed a challenge to provide them with the much needed attention for each individual (even more so for FTWM). Caring for 2 kids do require more time & attention but the joy that we get in return is doubled or even tripled.

I am very glad that I am able to spend more time with my kids. Now I am able to get daily updates on her school & what she has learnt via the teachers and through her non stop chattering. Jayven has been able to move around the whole house under proper supervision. It has been a fulfilling week! And not forgetting that my hubs have been very supportive. I love my family!