The kids need me

It has been a month since I stopped work. It also means that I have no income and it's time to spend wisely.
Frankly, there are many times that I felt uneasy for not being financially independent. Afterall, I have been working for years, earning my own monies and spending on my wants. But now, I have to think thrice before spending. Definitely challenging for a shopaholic like me.

I felt apologetic that my hubs have to bear all the expenses and I am unable to contribute to ease the financial strain. Recently, he had to work late in the office and I really felt bad that he has to work doubly hard now for the family.

Despite his heavy workload and stress, he has been so sweet and supportive. I felt bad and to a certain extent, useless for not being able to contribute to ease the financial strain (especially with the higher and higher living standards in our country). Yet he comforted and reminded me that the kids need me now.

With a 4 yo who want to be independent by insisting that she can do everything on her own and an extremely active 1 yo who will climb everywhere (regardless assisted or unassisted) and happily shoving anything that he can gets his hands on into his mouth, they definitely need a dedicated person to watch them 24/7, care for them, guide them and ensure that they are not hurt. And mother ie ME will be the most ideal candidate. Yes, the kids do need me. I am contributing to the family by ensuring that the kids are well taken care of. I am happy and contented. Not only because I know that the kids will be well under my care but I also know that my hubs understand and appreciate what I have done for the family.

It has always been a concern that couples will argue over money matters and blame each other for not being understanding to what they are facing at work or at home (have seen too many drama serials and listened to many real life stories). Nonetheless, I know that my hubs understand and he is fully aware that it is definitely not easy managing 2 kids. Of course, I played my part as the understanding wife to his work. Being in the workforce for years, I can totally understand how demanding and competitive it is out there.

Well, I know I will continue to feel redundant for not being financially independent from time to time but I also feel appreciated, knowing that my hubs understand that I am devoting my time to our kids and our kids will benefit and grow well under my undivided care and attention.

I love you my dear! Thank you for all that you have done and given to the family.
Our promise to each other: Stay loving forever and travel around the world together.

Our honeymoon